It's not MY fault.

First & foremost, lemme begin by telling u that this is a RANT&RAVE post.
so if ure not interested in hearing me rant or rave, then buzz off. now.

MY MOOD.

MY STRESS.

MY GLOOM.

I admit, i'm more stressed today than i've ever been during my whole 4years of studying law.

I get touchy, i get angry, i get moody, i snap, i sulk, i piss people off when i'm all this.

But, u have to understand. I'm not being all this on purpose. Neither am i asking for it. I'm in a situation, way beyond my control, way beyond my grasp. I just have to go with the flow.

So, it gets to me even more when u tell me, straight on, that u:

miss the old Adora

miss the fun-lovin Adora

become affected by my mood

feel so distanced from Adora

feel empty n nothing without the old Adora

dont smile as often

FEEL STRESSED TOO!

I am no more, but a slave to my situation.

I am no more, but a puppet to my emotions.

I am no more, but ignorant to my own needs.

I am no more, but forced to be like this.

So, is it my fault? I ask you.

You say u understand me. Do you?

I cant be the one to cheer u up all the time.

I cant be your cheerleader all the time.

I cant motivate you all the time.

Not when i am myself not motivated!

Hence, please excuse me being me, right now.

I'm tired of people telling me they miss the old Adora.

I MISS THE OLD ADORA.