My saturday Diary:)

Saturday 27th June 2009

8.15 am

I left home and met the person who was gonna take me to the driving school for my bengkel session. it was so early, and i was so ugly. and hungry.haha.

9.00 am

Went to mamak Thaqwa. for some reason, i ordered roti canai n teh tarik. i dont really order roti canai unless i was craving for them. but i dont know..i just ordered, automatically. *shudders* whooaaa..roti canai is so not healthy. bad!

9.45 am

Reached the driving school. and the morning session started at 10.15am..

1.00 pm

Lunch and zohor break. unfortunately for me, i had my 'monthly break'..aiyoo..i was rushed immediately to the hospi..hehe just kidding;) i went to Giant batu caves and got clean:D didnt even bother to have a proper lunch, as i swallowed the 2ponstans happily, to kill the cramps..

2.45 pm

Arrived a bit late, to study the Kancil's engine. it was a funny sight though. a superbly huge group crowding a tiny kancil's hood. everyone was sweaty, fidgety and sleepy..haha

4.00 pm

DONE!! yipee yeay! so off i went, happy that i'm a tad closer to ACTUALLY driving! haha. made a pitstop at petronas, got a chocolate+green tea boost (read: cadbury chocettes n caramello + lipton lemon green tea hehe :P)

4.30 pm

Somewhere, as unplanned as it was, stopped for durian by the roadside! i had 2 durians, almost all of it to myself..weeeeee~ *burp* *blush* hehe..gosh, i love the sweet soft taste of durian..the touch of its soft texture on the lips..funny how the fruit feels cold on ur lips but then makes your body all hot+sweaty:) hahaha i love my durians thank you!

5.30 pm

Had dinner at Ikea:) I had the fish & chips..yumyummieyummay..and ofcourse meatballs!!

6.45 pm

Ordered chicken chop at Chop & Steak for mama, picked up some stuff and headed home..

7.45 pm

HOME!safe and sound, all in one piece! durian burps and all;)


Note: I loved my saturday!! <3

It's not MY fault.

First & foremost, lemme begin by telling u that this is a RANT&RAVE post.
so if ure not interested in hearing me rant or rave, then buzz off. now.

MY MOOD.

MY STRESS.

MY GLOOM.

I admit, i'm more stressed today than i've ever been during my whole 4years of studying law.

I get touchy, i get angry, i get moody, i snap, i sulk, i piss people off when i'm all this.

But, u have to understand. I'm not being all this on purpose. Neither am i asking for it. I'm in a situation, way beyond my control, way beyond my grasp. I just have to go with the flow.

So, it gets to me even more when u tell me, straight on, that u:

miss the old Adora

miss the fun-lovin Adora

become affected by my mood

feel so distanced from Adora

feel empty n nothing without the old Adora

dont smile as often

FEEL STRESSED TOO!

I am no more, but a slave to my situation.

I am no more, but a puppet to my emotions.

I am no more, but ignorant to my own needs.

I am no more, but forced to be like this.

So, is it my fault? I ask you.

You say u understand me. Do you?

I cant be the one to cheer u up all the time.

I cant be your cheerleader all the time.

I cant motivate you all the time.

Not when i am myself not motivated!

Hence, please excuse me being me, right now.

I'm tired of people telling me they miss the old Adora.

I MISS THE OLD ADORA.