The 'It' has a name: Elsie

~~ The first time i saw it..it was definitely memorable.definitely etched in my mind.how i found it.how i took it.how i tried it.with whom it was.where it was.where its exact position.how it felt against the touch of my palm.how it felt as it slid onto my shoulder.how i felt when i had to put it back..

~~yes. i had to put it back. with a heavy heart, heavy sigh, and with heavy footsteps, i left.

~~yes. i couldnt stop thinking about it.i just couldnt!!haunting me, killing me softly..but i couldnt have it.couldnt afford to..not yet at least, i thought. "After 1 month adora, it will be within your grasp.." again i thought..

~~day in, day out, i work. and thats all i can do.because only work can bring me to it. so, i have to work! no choice, and also..no desire to let it slip from my hand. it will be mine!

~~*ponders to the day i first saw it *

~~it was gleaming proudly as it hung way above everyone. it was black as the night. yet it shone to me, directing a path, leading me, trance-like, straight to it..i touched it the first time.and..wow.it felt cold, but not at all unfriendly.. it's skin gleams under the light, and as i touched its skin, it took on my fingerprints, as if already succumbing itself to me..i 'owned' it. it's mine..or will be mine, soon.

~~every day&night i thought about it, i dreamt about it..but i never talked about it out in the open, to anyone. save for a few people..i just couldnt risk telling everyone about it! that will be just like me handing over my prized dream to someone, who would then own and flaunt it under my nose!

~~yes. im a jealous freak. and a selfish one at that!

~~Only a few knew about it. the few whom i know for sure wouldnt 'steal' it from me. not that i have it, to begin with..but can you blame me?? an innocent girl, longing for her heart's deepest pleasure and dream..ahh at times i feel ashamed of this desire..

~~as days turn into weeks, the urge became stronger. but i had to silence it! tell myself repeatedly, calm myself, that one sweet day, it will be mine to have and to hold. and surprisingly, that one sweet day was nearer than i thought..

~~on Saturday 19th April 2008, i got my black beautiful M&S handbag, Elsie. thank you!

Playgrounds after the rain.

~~I love playgrounds after the rain.

~~The air smells crispy clean, the grass is a tad cold for the bum, the monkey bars and the tic-tac-toe rolls are dripping wet, the swings swing a puddle of water on its seats, the slides run a trail of raindrops, and best of all, we just get to play at the playground cos it's no longer raining!;)

~~the story--5kids, the eldest maybe 12 and the littlest of them all maybe 5. all super excited, hyper and ready to play, when they saw the playground! a Guardian watches over, while also playing dead and running around with them, all the while not being self-conscious of herself and realising that i was watching her.haha;)

~~the kids brought their badminton rackets. 4 rackets to be exact. but only 1 shuttlecock. haha. so, at first, there was a bit of power struggle, as to who gets the shuttlecock. but all was resolved in a matter of seconds, when 1 boy started to play the slides. and fortunately, 2 of his brothers followed suit. phew. a close brush with brotherly squabbles which could have ended with someone crying;)

~~they ran, they screamed, they shouted, they played guns, they played with my umbrella, they came down the slides, they went back up! they circled the playground, they played the swing, they played the animal-like see-saws, they got off the see-saws and just shook em and made sure they stayed moving while making the other see-saws move as well haha, they played badminton with some Chinese kids from around the neighbourhood, they lost the game haha, they got wet from the slides, and suddenly..3 of them needed to pee.

~~i wonder why. could it be because of the wet slides?hmm.

~~so, off the kids went, back home, to pee. and to get icecream.haha.

~~note: the smallest of them all, was also the roundest, chubbiest, cutest, pudgiest and cuddlest kid i've ever seen! it was only natural for me to just hug him, hug him, hug him, smother him with kisses, pick him up, swing him around (though he's a teeny weenie bit heavy) and chase after him, just to watch his bum jiggle up&down!hehe;)

~~the guardian asked me what if all 5kids happened to be my kids?

~~well, i would teach them first to play with each other and look out after each other. then i'd split the bunch in 2; my husband would man 1group, and i would man the other.haha. then all hell will break loose!

~~so, lesson for today..

~~make sure u dont take your shower BEFORE you go to the playground. because when you go there with 5kids in hand, expect to sweat as if you're playing THE basketball game of your life.

~~game on, people.